Night Two

I cannot believe that I got back on the bike again tonight.

Stats = 25 mins and 7 miles

The pain was so much today.  I didn't know how I would make it to tonight.  There were many times I could do nothing else but cry.  I needed to cry.  I am not angry at God in the slightest bit about what has happened to me.  But I am so furious with this body.  I want to regain control over something.  And I am unsure about any other way than to just keep pressing through the pain.  I need to regain some strength.  So no matter what my body felt today, and will tomorrow, I am going to keep pressing forward.  I will try tomorrow night as well.  All the same pain as yesterday happened tonight.  Except today was harder because for most of the day I have been unable to breathe.

I so wish my physical therapist, who has seen me through everything, could be here to help me tomorrow.  I wish that if knowing I did Physical Therapy again, that she would be there.  But she is not here, and if I start that, I have to start over.  I will miss her dearly.

So I did it one more night.  And I hope many more nights to come.  God has carried me through another day.