This day has not been easy. My pain has been worse than most days. I could handle things if it was just one part, my back, my heart or my leg. But today, it has been all three. How does that happen? Why does that happen? My back feels like I have allowed my kids to jump on my scar over and over. My heart feels broken in so many ways. My leg has been heavy and harder to move. That scares me. I still have no idea what anything means for me. So this day has not been an easy one. This day I need to gather strength, where there is no strength other than with my conversation with the Lord. I hate these days, because usually too much on my mind means that I don't sleep well. And I am already tired. Maybe today I will decide that it is done. I will try and wake up tomorrow with a new hope. After all, if we don't have hope in brighter days and better things to come, what is there to look forward to.
I will remember this day as a hard day. Praying that tomorrow is a better one.
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